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AimeeRaindrop
Eternal Daydreamer
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United Kingdom
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You can also add me over on Xbox Live using my gamertag; aimeeraindrop

Hello and welcome to my page! I am a writer who has just started to dabble in photography! Writing is, and always will be, my first love, though, and in my gallery you can find a large selection of short stories and poems, with a smattering of non-fiction thrown in for good measure. You can also find my photos here, too!

I have a huge passion for books and I spend my days reading, browsing the library for new books to read or the local bookstores. I live in Tewkesbury, which is a lovely place for books with some quaint, independent bookstores and charity bookstores! So I'm in seventh heaven living here.

I also volunteer, part-time, at a local charity bookshop in Tewkesbury called Bookworm! I sort through the donated books and determine their quality as we only sell good quality books. Then I price them up, categorize and shelf them and man the till! It's a great gig for someone who loves books; as I do!

I run a book review blog over at Wordpress where I review the best, the worst and the "just okay" books as I read them. Follow the link and be sure to hit "Follow" to be kept up to date with latest blog posts: alifelivedthroughbooks.wordpre…
I live with my partner, we just bought a house together, and we're planning on getting a cat next year.

I help run the groups Glory-Be-Project, TheTitlePage and CRPhotography!

So have a browse around my page and feel free to send me a :note: if you want to say hi!

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:bulletgreen: I submit brilliant pieces of photography for the following categories over at CRPhotography - Horror and Macabre, Fireworks, Abstract and Surreal. Feel free to shoot me a :note: if you have any suggestions!

:bulletorange:Help run the groups Glory-Be-Project, TheTitlePage and CRPhotography

:bulletgreen:Write poetry, fiction and non-fiction.

:bulletorange:Critique prose, poetry, and photography.

:bulletgreen: News articles, journals and contests.


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  • Mood: Depressed
For the last month or so I've been sinking deeper and deeper into depression. And I think I've finally hit rock bottom. I no longer have any concept of time. I don't know what day is it, what time is it. I can't remember when things happened. Was it 2 weeks ago or yesterday? I don't care about basic things anymore; washing my hair, eating. I have absolutely no appetite. I sleep, a lot. I've just given up. On everything. I'm cutting myself off from the world. I no longer go out of the house or see people. I find it a huge effort to make contact with friends even by text. 

And no one knows. Because I can't bring myself to tell my family, who think I'm doing so well, that for the last 2 weeks I've been planning my suicide. I can't tell my friends, who I know have stuff going on themselves, that I can't cope. That I'm giving up. That I don't know how to fight. And when I did tell the mental health team they just gave me a number to ring to talk. As if that's going to solve everything. As if most days I have the energy to ring and talk to someone. I don't. I can't. 

I don't know how much longer I can live like this. I don't feel like I'm living. Just existing. And it seems like a waste. Pointless. But I don't have the energy or support to get better now. I don't know how to climb out of this 30ft hole I'm at the bottom of. Everything seems bleak and hopeless. I thought I was over the worst period of my life, but now I know it was just waiting for me to get complacent before striking again. 

This is the only place I feel safe putting my thoughts out there. I needed to say this. I don't know what good it will do, if any. But I needed to write it down so that people would know. I just don't know how to recover from this. 

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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner 5 days ago   Writer
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Sep 8, 2014
Thanks for the fave :)
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amour-raven Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you kindly for the fav on what love is not:lovely: 
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angelichope Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2014
Just stopping by to say hi, Aimee!:hug: I hope all your days are sunny, and nights are beautiful, like you!:):):):):)
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2014
Thanks for the faves :)
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